If I was writing up one of those cheeky personal ads to describe me this week it would simply read; Tired, Dizzy Mama, seeking a little more balance in her life.
Why the struggle?
You balance your cheque book. There is no choice.
You are supposed to balance your time between work and play. #failing
You strive to figure out the balance between Hubby and kids, and somewhere in there gouge out some time for yourself. Wait? What’s time for yourself again?
How much do you give your children and how much do you make them earn?
When to trust….when to double check.
How to set boundaries. When to let go.
Good food choices vs. sweet indulgence.
Money saved for a rainy day or spent lavishly to on memories that will last a lifetime.
Hard work vs. frivolous fun.
Wants vs. needs.
Exercise vs. time to lie on the couch.
Obligations vs. choice.
Strict rules vs. crazy play time.
Give and take.
This week, our March Break, was a different sort then we are used to. Instead of beaches and sunshine, we focussed on home, kids and the crazy beautiful chaos that is our regular life. All good things, but the driving, being pulled in a hundred different directions at once, and truly feeling like I didn’t have a moment just for me has been a harsh reminder. Even though I love this life of a Mom, and I am blessed to have it, I must find my balance. The happiest moments are when you control the chaos, not when it controls you. Time to shake things up, strike some “must do’s” off the calendar, and add in more joy. Time to slow the roll, get on top of the chaos, and make balance a priority. Life is always a delicate dance, time to find the song that works for me.