Yah Yah. We all know about us Stay At Home Mom's.
Sitting around all day in our Pj's watching our "shows" and eating bon bons.
Not a care in the world. No worries, no complaints.
If this is true then what the hell is wrong with me??
My name is ModernMom and I am a SAHM, I am busy and I am a Worrier.
I make lists. My last list was not titled "To Do" of "Honey Do" (one of my favorites by the way). but was actually tittled.
"My I'm Freakin Out and Never Gonna Get It All Done List"
This SAHM is one of the busiest people ever!!
So when I lie in bed at night lately I just can't seem to turn it off!
On top of the lists running through my head, are these random thoughts:
I wonder if my BlueEyes is right that the wee boy in her class who mames insects and glues them to paper is going to be in jail one day. (ummm can you say serial killer???)
I worry that I have not picked out the right dress for the upcoming charity event. (It's a fine balance between she looks hot and she looks like she is trying too hard)
I can't believe I had to turn down another dinner invite from the same couple. They are going to think I'm dodging them. (I am so not.)
I am sure this much chocolate can't be good for you, and is not going to help me fit into said dress. (Must add buy more Halloween Candy to my Freakin List)
I worry about a girlfriend who is very ill and another who accepted a proposal from her Mr.Big. Sigh.
I wonder why the school my kids attend. A really good school, with an absenteeism rate of almost 25% right now, has not been shut down until our kids can be vaccinated against the swine flu.
I wonder if getting the H1N1 vaccine is even the right thing to do.
I can't imagine why parents with ill children have to be TOLD to keep there kids at home.
I'm ticked off that I missed garbage day and when it only comes every 9 days or so, this is a big deal.
Another marriage. Another friend devastated. Another family has ended in divorce. This is 4 in just under a year! What is going on?
My head spins back around to a charity event I'm organizing. Ticket sales, seating, ordering wine, centrepieces, auction items......
Then when I look at the clock and realize it's 3am an I have to get up in 4 hours! Oh you should never do the math!
Sleep comes but it is fitful and full of vivid nightmares.
Today I am whiny and will end up strung out on coffee and rambly. Like this post!
What is my point?
-If your kids are sick. Show respect and keep them home.
-Never underestimate what a SAHM has going on behind those closed doors.
End of Rant!
Wishing you all sweet dreams!
![](<a href="http://bit.ly/kXaClE" target="_blank"><img src="http://shesconnectedconference.com/Badges/SCConf2011_Badge_Advisor.png" width="130" height="130" alt="ShesConnected Conference 2011 - Advisor" border="0" /></a>){kind=icon}
39 comments:
;) Nothing wrong with your post at all. Actually you can use it as a list heehee.
I don't have kids but I can just imagine the fear about swine flu. I'm terrified and even more terrified about getting the shot. I feel the worries you have.
From reading your blog for about a week now, I think you will have an amazing charity event and you will pull it off perfectly! Not to mention, look great in the dress you picked! :)
I can totally relate. I really don't have time for a job! :)
When I'm having one of those, can't turn off my brain kind of nights, I usually just get up and either have a drink or Blog. Sometimes both!
H1N1? Yes, I'm getting that shot, so is my 3 1/2 year old just as soon as we can. I'd rather deal with the effects of the shot than the flu. That's the same mindset I used when I had to hold her down for her shots when she was a baby. I hated doing that!
Im a constant worrier too. It's crazy some days. I'm sure it's affecting my health. So I'm sure if your a SAHM or a working mom....worrying is worrying.
I'd say breathe....lol but then I don't follow that advice often either LOL.
I hope you get some sleep soon.
Couldn't have said it better myself. Well minus the whole charity event stuff, lol.
I do the same thing at night. And your probably right about the serial killer. Watch Dexter (Season 1)for more warning signs ;)
{hugs}
i don't know about anyone else...but this seems the norm for ANY mom, whether she works outside the home, in the home or whatever.
it's part of being the mom. We always have too much on our plates and worry about everyone else and the list goes on and on.
I do the same things too. I always seem to stress over the things I cannot change.
Whine away...it makes you feel better I know.
I have found that those lists seem to help me turn off my brian at night.
ps. I gave up bon bons when I found out they were not enviromentally friendly. :0
Hope all gets a bit calmer for you!
People don't know what other people do all day, unless they are with them.
At bedtime everyone is just as tired as everyone else too.
Secretia
I understand ALL of those concerns. I think you're just like a lot of us - OVERWHELMED! Like right now, I should be paying bills, but I'm socializing with my blogging friends. :) Okay, I'll sign off and get to it!
Sorry about the insomnia...hope it's a short phase that will go away soon. I've been through that too.
I don't want to sound like a mother, but your current worries will lessen as you get older. Unfortuantely, other kinds of worries will take its place, but maybe you won't lose any sleep over it. :)
I don't sleep either. But it's hormone related. I agree about keeping kids home. Why do the schools have to tell us??
Three weeks ago it was parent visit night at Awana...during prayer time, all the kids were saying (with Kentucky accents) "my ma is si-yak with de swiiine fluuuu"...insert pa, sister, uncle, friend, ya git de pikture...then one kid says, "I have uh feeeeeeeeever" and sure enough, he does! Teachers take him out. I am like oh.my.goodness. There is a reason my kids have sanitizer clipped to their jeans!
Didn't matter! Next day my daughter gets the swiiiine fluuuuuu...days later so does my son. It was lame, but we made it through, and I kept thinking about the 4-year-old boy we prayed for THAT NIGHT in class who was in ICU on a respirator. So many things keep us up at night...I keep giving it up to God because man, my head is full and I can only eat so much chocolate before I can't fit into my PJ's anymore, which is something else to worry about all in itself. Hang in there!
(PS I don't know what I would do either, vaccinate or not. But, it doesn't matter, we don't have access to it here anyway!)
the last time I had a full nights sleep wasw when I was drugged up the day after giving birth. and yes I missed garbage day too and it is completely fruatrating when that happens
MM, I hope you get some rest soon.
I am sure your dress looks divine on you, with the right combination of Muy Caliente and Class.
The Charity event will be Fab, just like you.
Chocolate is always good for you.
Sorry about the swine flu at school, Wow.
Sending you ((Hugs))
It still happens when they grow up and leave the nest. You still have night tossing and turning!
I have to make lists and I check them twice! I pray for a good nights sleep for all!
That's one of my pet peeves, too --parents who still send their kids to school when the children are not well.
It's now almost 2am and I'm still up...
I'm totally there with you. We forgot to put the garbage out last week too. I can't shut my mind down at night wither. I'm sure your charity event will go great and you'll look hot.
This post rocks. I am a SAHM and I totally feel the same way. By the end of the day I am ready for everyone to go to sleep and then maybe I can. But no I hear something or I am like you going over things. Oh well we rock...
I have my days. Some I spend constantly going and doing one errand or activity to the next NON-STOP until 11 pm - like yesterday. Then there are some when I facebook for hours on end (I don't watch shows.) I think it all evens out somehow.
And I think my son is in your BlueEyes' class. :/
I can't shut my brain off either - even if there is not much going on. You have a ton going on, so it's no wonder it's affecting your sleep. Wishing you some good rest soon!
about that H1N1! ... crazy stufff its like your damned if you get the flu shot and ur damned if you dont! people have gotten sick over these recent shots! some have gotten nerve damage due to this flu shot... youtube it! cheerleader gets flu shot!
man o man... its way too new to me! Im waiting this epidemic out by staying sanitized and keeping way from sick people... or ... ill get the shot... CONFUSED?? yup.
I am an insomnia queen too. It is the only time to think when it is quiet. I am getting too old to survive on a few hours of sleep! I think too many people underestimate all we do as moms, whether we stay at home or work.
Holly
I know what you mean. My husband calls me "the stay at home mom who is never home." But the main thrust of your post reminds me of something my sister has posted on her Facebook page: "Be kinder than necessary for everyone is fighting their own private battle." Thanks for putting out there what many of us are feeling!
as a working mumm not a SAHM I can say there are days when I've done the "is she ill, isn't she ill - she can go to school and they will send her home if she gets bad" and she's gone back to school a day earlier than I would have sent her if I was a SAHM. sometimes it's really really hard to keep all the balls in the air. yes my daughter comes first, yes I do care about her and all the other kids at school - but I also have to keep a pay check coming in. (but no, if I had swine flu, I would not send daughter in - that's just dumb)
and as a WM not a SAHM, I also lie at night with the same things going round in my head.
good luck with the dress!
I just missed my garbage day today for the 2nd week in a row. I can't even believe it!
You will look like a million bucks in your dress! No worries!
I was a SAHM the whole time my kids were growing up. It's a very hard, very busy, very unappreciated, but worth every minute job! I work now but could still fill up every minute with things to do at home if I was a SAHG (grandma)
Hang in there!
I so agree with you... are people that inconsiderate or just really dumb? :-/
I am a SAHM with three furkids that are SO much work, and a big house and working on projects to bring in money - it was easier when I had a 9 to 5 job sometimes, I swear!
So true. But, we have a job that we can't leave at work! I can't turn it off either. I can always fall asleep easily at night, but if I get woken up, forget it. I'm up for hours thinking about things. H1N1 is topping my list lately, too.
Amen to this post!! My childless sister came over to my house one day and saw that I have TONS of tv shows on my DVR that go back weeks and weeks. She asked me why I hadn't been watching my shows and I said "Because I don't have time." And she said, "But, you stay at home with your son all day. You could watch them then." Someday she will have kids and see for herself exactly why I can't watch my tv shows all day. Or ever.
And, my opinion about the swine flu shot: there is no way I would let my son or anyone in my family be given the swine flu shot. It is too new and it has some dangerous ingredients, like mercury and squalene.
I'm sure you will look beautiful at your event! Still enjoy your chocolate!
Your post sounds just like my post from yesterday! Random bits and rants! Too funny!
Hope you get some sleep.
Oh, and we are all (five of us) getting the H1N1 shot next week. Absolutely.
I'm sure I'll never be a SAHM, because I'll never be an M, so I appreciate this peek into your life. I can't imagine having to juggle a family, I have a hard enough time keeping myself straight.
Kudos to the SAHM! You have the hardest job in the world. Little people are at stake. No greater treasure.
yep.. TOTALLY missed my garbage truck this week... made me very angry...
relax and breathe is what i always say... though i know it much easier said than done!
Yeah, so much going on, so much to keep track of, so much that we are responsibly for..
That's why I'm sitting on the recliner with the laptop, while the kids play outside. I'm taking the day off.
You need a nap. A long one. SAHM sitting on their butts my hiney! This is the absolute first that I have sat down all day long!
Good luck with the event!
Let me know when you find the balance between hot and trying too hard. Or hot and she's too old to be wearing that.
Love your insights!
Great post!
I cannot agree more with keeping sick children home~
I suggest a shot of vodka~
That reminds me to add vodka to MY list! LOL
Great post! It is so true. Probably it's easier for a working mom to put down a stay at home mom instead if taking the chance to be one. My main thought is that if a husband has the same attitude...his wife is home watching TV and eating bon bons...there is trouble "a brewen."
SAHM's have to deal with working moms' comments but if Hubby joins their side...what follows isn't a good thing. www.claudiabroome.com
Good points. Maybe you need to start saying no? I, too, take on way too much and need to scale things back now and then. On the bright side, I've lost five pounds this month from stress alone...
I'm with you - I don't think I have slept peacefully in 8 years!
Post a Comment